Ended properly...

Hmm, a mix of happiness and sadness. My last day in ExxonMobil. My internship has finally finished and I'm glad that God was all the way with me. I'm glad that I've made a difference in that department itself. I think I kinda shined for God because I get remarks like, "Our working life no life one... we should be like Terence, go to a church. Look at him, got church, so busy, got work, but still he's so full of life", "We are definitely gonna miss you, you are the most efficient Tier 1". It's not that I'm boasting, seriously, to me, it's just the way I am wired I guess...

I just felt like, all this, everything that I did for ExxonMobil, it felt satisfying, maybe because middle of my internship, I started to change my perspective, in doing everything, as though I'm doing for God, therefore I must gave my best, coz He gave His best, His only Son, to be the sacrificial lamb, and by His Son's blood, we are all made free from our sins. Maybe because of this reason, I choose to do everything, just like doing for Him la. :)

What touched me is they gave me uber cool gadjet. Will post the pics someday la, now lazy la :P

Anyway, going to dreamland soon. Woooo. I'll surely miss Enterprise Storage - Backup East team.

God bless.

God is... so tasty!

Haha, was thinking of what to write... I just felt that once you've tasted the goodness of God, you will not turn back to the world. This is what I'm going through for the past few weeks. Very strongly the puzzles of my life is becoming a piece of portrait...

There are alot of questions in my mind and God is beginning to answer them one by one. And it's kinda scary la... hahaha

Don't really know how to put it into words la... seriously... Just one sentence to sum it all la: God is faithful, merciful and graceful. :)

Setting up a goal...

I want to be a worship leader! (got this thought when I was bathing, 10 minutes ago).

Shalom.

God breaks us, in order to shape us.

Was reading some articles (Anchors In The Storm by Joe Stowell, Discovery Series) and there was this part that I find quite profound la...

"If you ever get really disappointed or discouraged, read the story of Joseph in Genesis 37-50. Betrayed by the people closest to him, his own family, he was sold into Egypt as a slave. Rising to a place of influence in Potiphar's house, Joseph daily faced Potiphar's wife's efforts to seduce him.

The Egyptians prided themselves on having beautiful, sensual wives. Potiphar, being one of the leading bureaucrats in the land, no doubt had a wife who was rather spctacular. He was off on business much of the time, so she was probably lonely. Joseph, who was young and strong, was running the household every day. One day, she grabs him, and he runs. God looks down on Joseph and says, "Joseph, nice going. You're My kind of man!" Bt he gets 3 years in the slammer. For 3 years, nobody remembers him. (In those years God may have been extracting the arrogance from his life.)"

When I was reading this part, I paused and kinda reflected on my life. Somehow I felt that this speaks much to me, I believe some of you also. Sometimes, we felt that we know everything and we have everything in control (especially when things are going smooth), then something happened that struck us down, and when we call out to God, there's no answer, not even a sign. What should we do then? What I normally would do is to reflect back on the things that has happened, identify the areas that I'm weak, and response to God in prayer that I'm weak and I have been arrogant. I realise that I know nothing, even when I think that I know everything. I would ask God to teach me, how to be humble and in everything I do, I should refer to Him first, and not men, not the people around me.

Sometimes God allows problems and circumstances to happen in our life in order to break us and to mold us. Maybe you have problems with your best friend, your boyfriend/girlfriend, your parents, your lecturers, maybe you have just broke up, did something terrible, etc... Know that all these things happen for a reason and that God allowed it to happen, in order to break you, mold you and to shape your character, to be who He wants you to be.

You might think that you are not able to go through it but let me tell you that you are able, because it is written in 1 Corinthians 10:13 - "And God is faithful; He willl not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear." - and also 2 Corinthians 12:9 - "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." - So, hang in there, and know that whatever circumstances that you're in, God will be able to deliver you. Nothing is too hard for God (Gen 18:14 - Is anything too hard for the Lord?).

So hang in there. After God breaks Joseph, what did God did? Read on...

"Then, in His time, God delivers Joseph and elevates him to the second highest position in the empire."

Be blessed. :)

FSCC

Just in case you guys are wondering what the heck is this FSCC that terence is talking about... lemme just briefly tell you guys:

My Pastor in TSF (FGA KL) got a vision few years back. In that vision, God told him to plant a church in Serdang area, to reach out to students from UPM, Uniten, MMU, UKM and etc. He prayed and through the years, God has provided and really confirmed it. So, my Pastor asked the permission of the church to release him and at first, the church elders was not so happy about it la, because he's the kind of Pastor that you can share everything and he is DEFINITELY not afraid to correct you on the spot (I kena before, sakit... but seriously must thank God for it :D).

So around 2 years back, the church has given him the green light already, released him to go to Serdang and plant a church. Up until this year, around August/September, he announced it during the youth meetings, and man... I was shocked...

Before this, I was thinking of going to a "smaller" church, to serve and be a blessing there already, because I felt FGA KL is too big for me. Imagine coming to church every week and when you try to smile and say hi to them, they don't smile back... Maybe because I'm the sensitive type of guy, if let's say you don't smile back to me and just walk away, I will automatically assume that you are not interested in becoming terence's friend. So... haha :P

And so, I was praying lor... I felt that it's time for me to move on... seriously was planning on what to tell my leader d... See see, pastor announced about a new church in SERDANG area (dahla smaller, + it's near my house! Wooo!). God sure knows how to give me a surprise, haha. And so, this coming January, will be officially going to FSCC already.

FSCC = FGA Serdang Community Centre.

Wanna know more about FSCC? Ask me face to face :D. By the way, you guys are invited ya. The service will be on Sunday, 10am until 11.30am, 12pm max. After that can go makan chi pau kai summore. :D:D:D The location of the church is just opposite KTM Serdang. Convenient right? Come and join us ya!

Okies, gotta go berus gigi and makan breakfast d. Later going to test the acoustic amp. Woot! Take care peeps!

Kena kutuk...

Was playing the acoustic today and kena kutuk by David Leong and Davin Tan. Both say I play like kayu... haram... I'm not performing la dude, it's my way of worship ma... berani kutuk aku... cis...

Anyway, am glad that Davin wanted to join us (FSCC, woohoo!) and wants to serve there. Woo! Super excited as I'm going to FSCC soon, and Lake wanted to get a Yamaha guitar, woo! Hidup Yammies!

The worship was great. My fingers are swelling now... Hohoho. Time for me to hit the sack d... Woke up at 7.40AM today, sampai sekarang tak tidur-tidur lagi...

Sending a loud BIRTHDAY WISH to my buddy Jagad, Khye Tee, Nasrul (exxon colleague) and Kitha! God bless you guys!

Shalom.

A Poem by Russell Kelfer

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

You're a precious and perfect unique design,

Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb,

You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy,

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into his likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

Was thinking about how significant each and every one of us is, in God's eyes. No matter how you feel about yourself, no matter how the world treats you, know that there is a God that loves and cares for you. :)

Indescribable...

Hmm, what to write ahr... Haha, sorry beb, not sure what to write here. Was practising guitar just now and playing Indescribable by Chris Tomlin, somehow I felt God is just... well... indescribable! There are alot of things happening around me (eg: friends breaking up, friends getting along together, having fun in the office, thinking of what to expect in FSCC, riding my bike to and fro from work amidst of HEAVY rain) and right now I was thinking, if there's a word to describe God, what word would I use... Hmm, I guess I'll use - indescribable! :D

I had a dream a few days back, dreaming of this girl that I know in my uni CF. In that dream, both of us look at each other and ask the same question: Is this pak tor? (literally: Are we hooking up?). Just then, my mum woke me up because it's 6.15am (apparently, my hp's alarm wasn't loud enough to wake me up). What I did was, I prayed and biarkan la, see what happens lor... Manatau... I had a second part of the dream 2 days later. I dream of another girl (let's call her A), from PERKEB also, drag me to see her parents. Her hand was clinging to my arm and brought me to her family dinner. Her family members asked me who am I. At that particular point, I felt so disgusted + felt so bad because in my head, I was thinking, "Eh, I thought I've already attached to B?), and you know what I did? I took A's hand off, and I pat her shoulder, looking at her family members, I say, "We are just very good friends.". Of course, A looked sad... So I told her, "I don't think so I belong here, guess I'll just make a move".

Told Rachel about it and she was asking me whether this is a sign from God. To be true to you guys, I'm really not sure. I kinda like told B to pray about it but I guess she's angry at me... Hahaha, nvm la, later I messaged B and told her to forget about it and after that, I submit those dreams to God d. Only God knows la what's the meaning of it (unless someone can interpret for me la :P).

Anyway, I felt that it's time for me to move on and to stay focus in whatever I'm doing (PERKEB, FSCC, my life). What I'm doing right now is simple, I can sum it up in 3 words > Wait on God.

=)

PS: 2 more weeks for my internship. Just 2 more... Project dah habis. Woohoo! Time to go back to my Yammie. Take care peeps!